Wide-Eyed and Nervous O_O

I wish I could explain how weird I feel right now.

I'm laying in my dorm bed for the first time in three weeks.

It's loud out there, and it makes me nervous.

I've stayed at my friends' apartments and with Justin, because it's depressing in my dorm without my roomate :(

The room was a mess for awhile. Now it's all nice and clean. The trash has been taken out, the bed made, the fridge emptied of it's rotting contents, and the entire room has been purified with baking soda and Hawaiian scented Glade air-fresheners.It's not felt this much like home since I moved in, yet I hate being left completely alone. 

"This will be good for you," Justin reassured me as he tucked my blanket snugly around me."You said it yourself-you need more time for you." 

I scowled as he used my words from the beginning of the year out of context and against me. "You know that I was talking about being in a dorm with over 200 other girls when I said that. They're still here, I'm just in my own little room and it sucks."

I looked at him pleadingly, begging with my eyes once again for him to stay with me. He smiled at me in a way that let me know he wasn't going to. "Not tonight, honey," he affirmed, and my heart died just a tiny bit. He leaned in to kiss me again and I sighed thinking about staying in my dorm room alone. It was a little scary. I felt uneasy, and as he walked across my room after turning the dim lamp off, I couldn't help but blurt, "Close the closet door, please!!" He smiled but said nothing, closed the closet, and left the room. 

Maybe I should have asked him to check for monsters under my bed. Maybe...they're in the closet O.O

<3-Aerial